Sunday, May 12, 2013

I'm feeling very crummy this morning.  I drank all day and night yesterday but had a great day with my friend on her wedding day.  I saw so many people this weekend that I haven't seen for a couple years and it felt so good catching up. 

I also had to wear the dress I've been working hard to get into (and not look like a sausage in) for the last three months. 

My dress. 

Bridesmaids

Downtown with the Wedding Party

Waiting for Pizza at Flinger's
The day was a lot of fun, the bride looked beautiful and I couldn't be more happy for her and her husband.  But today, I am feeling a little slow.  I need to get up and clean, do laundry and run outside in the beautiful weather.

Last but not least, Happy Mother's Day to all the mom's out there.  The world wouldn't run properly without you!

B

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Food Day Hell

I used to LIVE for food days at work.  Co workers would bring in all kinds of homemade goodies  (I don't' aknowledge the store bought stuff, that's cheating!) and we would all pig out for the day.  IT wasn't a huge deal because we all walked, lifted, unloaded and were on our feet all day.  There were a lot of calories being burned right after they went in.  Regardless, I would always go over board and bring multiple items and then continue to go over board by eating multiple servings of each and every item that was provided.  I've gotten a little better at controlling the portions but still have a difficult time resisting extras when they are brought to work.

The yummy salsa I made for Food Day.


I am at a new job now, in an office, where I SIT all day.  It's not been very forgiving to my waistline.  Making good choices especially in these social foodie situations has NOT been easy.  One day, two weeks ago, I had a really great breakfast and then walked in to donuts on the back table.  Then the following week we had a training class food day.  Today someone brought cookies.  In every single one of these situations I struggled.  So much that ALL I could focus on was the food on the back table.  I hate that when junky, terrible food is right in front of me, that is all I can think about.  I did one thing today that I didn't do the other days.  I told myself that if there were still cookies left after lunch I would have ONE small portion.  I would not think about them all morning and I would eat the healthy snacks that I brought to fuel my body.  I did JUST that.

I hate that I have to make a conscious effort to avoid food.  I wish I had the self control to look away.  I'm working on it though.  I have to remind myself that I'm not losing anything except for pounds of fat when I choose apples or carrots instead of cookies and donuts. 

  
Walking break at work, I love the blooming trees.
On another note, I know I've been gone for a while.  I've just been trying to get used to the new job and routine.  I've also been having a very rough time making any progress.  I've been tracking calories and exercising but have still gained weight.  The truth is, I don't think I've been trying as hard as I could have been.  I'm not going to be concerned until I know I have given 100%. I can tell you though that using My Fitness Pal and working out BEFORE work is helping.  I'll keep trying that.  Even if I don't lose more weight,  I am so much happier with the changes I've been making.  

I was not successful completing my mileage goal for April.  The day I wrote that post I immediately went out for a run.  Then I fell. HARD.  I never went to the doctor but I think I tore/sprained something in my knee.  It was swollen and bruised all the way down to my ankle for about three weeks.  I'm still having a little trouble kneeling on it (during group fitness) but other than that I think I'm on the mend. However, I have developed a fear of running on the pavement.

Last but not least I have a friend to thank.  She knows who she is.  This past weekend I went home and spent some time with my family.  On Friday night I ran into an old friend and the first thing out of her mouth was "I read your blog!"  Although I feel like I'm just rambling nonsensical thoughts a lot of the time,she told me than I inspire her.  YEP! THAT'S RIGHT.  She said that I inspired her!  That made me feel so good.  I can't really even explain it to you, but it really lit a fire under my butt to keep moving and sharing what I'm doing, even if it is disjointed and rambly at times.  

In the midst of some of the negativity that's stirred up lately, let's remember that that's why we are here.  To inspire, motivate and lift each other up. 

"Everyone has a story that makes me stronger.  I know that the work I do is important and I enjoy it, but it is nice to hear the feedback of what we do to inspire others."
~Richard Simmons

  Goodnight and Happy Running,

Mrs. B.